Thursday, March 26, 2009

Not a very good record, eh?

I've been grossly negligent in my posting, haven't I? Thank you dear friend for prodding me to action. :)

As many of you know, I'm in the process of moving. I'm really happy about that. But I'm also awfully busy right now. I have had neither the time nor the energy to post a new pic. But... because my beautiful friend, Jeannie, asked me to:

This was taken the other day before we left to go to Home Depot to look at paint. The door and shutters on our new house need to be painted. We don't really like the color that is on them now. We're thinking some shade of red, or perhaps we'll stick with green, but just a nicer one, not so olive toned.

Anyway... I've been good. My sugar has been pretty steady in the 100 to 140 range. Just a couple of spikes in the last few weeks. The weight is not coming off. In fact I think I've gained a couple more pounds... but I can't let that bother me right now. I know I'm eating healthy. I'm not eating bad food or fatty food. I'm eating whole grains, legumes, lean meat, having yogurt smoothies, whole grain muffins or pancakes and fresh fruit for breakfast. I'm eating my largest meal for lunch and trying to eat light for supper. Mostly having salads for supper and soups. My downfall is still the bedtime snacks, tho. Have to work harder to curb that habit.

Hopefully I will have more time soon, to put up a better, more informative post. Thanks for hanging in there with me gang. I appreciate it so much. Love to all!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

See? I promised you a picture...

...and here it is.

That's me with the marvelous new home gym thingie. Perhaps one day I will even take a picture of myself actually using it.

But I was trying to get ready to take my man out for his birthday dinner. Ended up driving over to the new neighborhood and drooling over our soon to be new house. Talking, making plans...

We are going down to FL to pick up Thomas very early Saturday morning. We have to be here Sunday for the home inspection at 1pm. And the man has to work next Saturday, so we can't go down there then. Will be extra busy this weekend, and then for several weeks to come, but it will be good. I have prepared good breakfast foods like the apple cinnamon bran muffins and the blueberry sourdough bran muffins and I have laid in a supply for those Activia brand yogurt smoothies. I like them. And lets face it... I AM NOT going to make a smoothie every morning, or any morning, for all practical purposes. Let's be realistic. Baking muffins? No problem. Whizzing up a smoothie in that noisy blender first thing in the morning? Yes problem. A muffin I can bake at any time and then freeze. A smoothie is not something that is very good after you let it sit a while. So...

Maybe I will at least eat healthy even if I don't stay on an exercise regimen. Perhaps I won't gain too much more weight. If I can just stay where I am right now, until we get this move all done, I will be happy. I am not going to even dream of loosing any during this time. It will be stressful enough without worrying about that, too. I so I will just concentrate on doing what I have to do and also on eating healthy. I won't feel guilty if I don't get my exercises done every day, or even every other day. I'm pretty sure that packing stuff up and moving things around will be pretty darned close to exercise. Don't you think?

Anyway, here's another pic of me with our new addition. OH! Did I mention that we are reserving the middle bedroom for an exercise room. We will put the home gym, the treadmill and the other stuff in there to start off with. And we will have no excuse to not use it. I hope.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Not Loosing Any Weight...

... but I feel pretty good anyway.
We finally got our home gym thingie put up and working. It's awesome! I have no pics yet, but... I will, I promise. Soon.

Okay, I was feeling pretty good. Now I'm depressed. Crushed. Okay, I'm crying a little bit. Life sucks. We got the house we wanted but when I called my son, who is in FL right now with his other family and who is supposed to come home on Sunday, he asked me if he could stay a couple of weeks longer. And Pete didn't want me to tell him that we got the house. He wanted him to just come home and be surprised. Why the hell does he always want to make surprises when he KNOWS damned well that they never turn out the way he expects or wants them to then he gets all offended and it just makes things harder on me. I feel so angry and sad and mad and terrible. Why is it that ever since we got married the days that should be the happiest always turn out to be horrible? I feel like I was robbed. By Thomas and by Pete. I should still be feeling happy and excited and all that good stuff. Instead, I'm sitting here crying and my nose is all stuffed and my eyes are blurry and red and I feel awful. I hate men! All of them! Not really. But I am mad as hell at both of them for taking this happy moment and turning it into a horrible one. It sucks.

And I'm also still fat. Only now... I'm fat and I have a ugly crybaby blubber face, too. I know we are going to have words tomorrow when we talk about it. Pete and I, that is. I've already had words with Thomas and that really sucks too cause I miss him so bad I think I might die and I'm worried to hell that he's going to want to stay there with them (they have been really working on him this time) and then they will take all his money and he'll have nothing left to live on and his life will be terrible and Oh God! Shut me up! I feel so miserable right now. I'm going to go to bed. I don't really feel like updating my stats or doing anything like that. I feel like crying and screaming and stomping and yelling and thrashing around on the floor and generally having a big two year old toddler type mad fit. But that won't help, will it?