Here I am!!!



This pic was taken on March 29th. I do not remember where we were going but I do remember the outfit. Oh wait! I remember now! We were going to Home Depot to check out new bathroom and kitchen fixtures and refrigerators. Okay...

Anyway, Happy Easter! To all who are celebrating. We are having a ham (cooked in the crockpot) greens, potatoes, and cheesecake for dessert. We are also taking a couple of loads of stuff to the new house. So... we aren't actually REALLY celebrating, but then again... we are. I remembered to purchase a little bit of Easter candy for the family. I got a sugar free chocolate bunny. Thomas got a set of small Reese brand peanut butter bunnies. Pete got a package of yellow Peeps (which he actually likes).

So there I am. My back has been hurting something fierce. Don't know why. I haven't been lifting things that were too heavy or over-doing. That's a fact. I should have had way more done than I have. But I digress... My sugar is just a taddy high, but it usually is this time of the month. Hopefully I'll feel better in a few days. I haven't really been bad, as far as diet, just still not exercising. But who has time? We did order pizza for supper last night. I had Spinach pizza with bacon and shrooms. I love the Spinach pizza from Papa John's. It's really good. Maybe not so good FOR you, but good tasting, that's for sure. Anyway, it is one of their lower caloric choices but that didn't really go into my choice. I chose it because I love it. And I'm not going to get down on myself for it. I've been working hard and I deserve a treat every once in a while. So there! :-)

Hope you are all having a lovely holiday. See you guys later (soon, I hope).

Southern Dump Cake for Diabetics

I love Dump Cake. It's so yummy. And it's a true Southern Tradition. I'm not sure when it originated or who thought of it first... but who ever it was was a genius.
However... being diabetic makes it kinda of an off-limits item. It's not really even very good for you if you aren't a diabetic.

However... thanks to more sugar-free items becoming available on southern grocery store shelves, one can enjoy a less unhealthy version. Which myself and my family actually liked better than the original. So... instead of posting a picture of myself today or anything like that, I thought I would share this recipe with you all:

Ingredients
1 box Pillsbury's Moist Supreme Classic Yellow Reduced Sugar cake mix
1 20 ounce can Comstock More Fruit Light Cherry Pie Filling
1 20 ounce can Dole Pineapple Tidbits in juice (no sugar added)
1 cup chopped pecans, walnuts, almonds, your choice of nuts. Or use large shred coconut (sometimes called coconut chips)
1 stick light butter, melted. Or use equivalent amount (half cup) of other nutritionally sound oil such as mild olive oil, walnut oil, or avocado oil. I used light butter this time, but I intend to play around with it and see which ones work best. My guess is that different oils will work better with different fruits... not so?

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

This is the way you put it together:
Spread the cherry pie filling in the bottom of a 13x9 pan. I use a heavy glass baking pan for this. Pour pineapple tidbits (or crushed pineapple) on top of the cherries. Sprinkle the entire box of cake mix evenly over the top of the fruit. Sprinkle the chopped nuts, or coconut chips (if using) over the top of the dry cake mix. Now drizzle the melted butter (or alternate oil) slowly over the dry cake mix and nuts. Note that you must not stir this dessert at any time. Trust me. It will all work out. Layer your items and put on the middle rack of your preheated oven. Bake for 30 to 40 minutes, depending on how high or low your oven burns.

This was a beautiful Dump Cake and more delicious than the original. The fruit tasted "fruitier" and "brighter", not as cloyingly sweet as the regular kind of Dump Cake. The cake mix didn't taste any different than any other full-sugar store bought cake mix I've ever had. I would encourage anyone and everyone to make this version of a Southern Classic. I would not recommend eating it every day... but if you know you are going to eat one anyway... why not have this less dietarily offensive version?

I will be experimenting with this recipe. The cherry and pineapple version is my very most favorite, but Thomas has just asked if I could make an apple version. I think that might be my next try. Apple Walnut Dump Cake anyone?

Not a very good record, eh?

I've been grossly negligent in my posting, haven't I? Thank you dear friend for prodding me to action. :)

As many of you know, I'm in the process of moving. I'm really happy about that. But I'm also awfully busy right now. I have had neither the time nor the energy to post a new pic. But... because my beautiful friend, Jeannie, asked me to:



This was taken the other day before we left to go to Home Depot to look at paint. The door and shutters on our new house need to be painted. We don't really like the color that is on them now. We're thinking some shade of red, or perhaps we'll stick with green, but just a nicer one, not so olive toned.

Anyway... I've been good. My sugar has been pretty steady in the 100 to 140 range. Just a couple of spikes in the last few weeks. The weight is not coming off. In fact I think I've gained a couple more pounds... but I can't let that bother me right now. I know I'm eating healthy. I'm not eating bad food or fatty food. I'm eating whole grains, legumes, lean meat, having yogurt smoothies, whole grain muffins or pancakes and fresh fruit for breakfast. I'm eating my largest meal for lunch and trying to eat light for supper. Mostly having salads for supper and soups. My downfall is still the bedtime snacks, tho. Have to work harder to curb that habit.

Hopefully I will have more time soon, to put up a better, more informative post. Thanks for hanging in there with me gang. I appreciate it so much. Love to all!

See? I promised you a picture...

...and here it is.




That's me with the marvelous new home gym thingie. Perhaps one day I will even take a picture of myself actually using it.

But I was trying to get ready to take my man out for his birthday dinner. Ended up driving over to the new neighborhood and drooling over our soon to be new house. Talking, making plans...

We are going down to FL to pick up Thomas very early Saturday morning. We have to be here Sunday for the home inspection at 1pm. And the man has to work next Saturday, so we can't go down there then. Will be extra busy this weekend, and then for several weeks to come, but it will be good. I have prepared good breakfast foods like the apple cinnamon bran muffins and the blueberry sourdough bran muffins and I have laid in a supply for those Activia brand yogurt smoothies. I like them. And lets face it... I AM NOT going to make a smoothie every morning, or any morning, for all practical purposes. Let's be realistic. Baking muffins? No problem. Whizzing up a smoothie in that noisy blender first thing in the morning? Yes problem. A muffin I can bake at any time and then freeze. A smoothie is not something that is very good after you let it sit a while. So...

Maybe I will at least eat healthy even if I don't stay on an exercise regimen. Perhaps I won't gain too much more weight. If I can just stay where I am right now, until we get this move all done, I will be happy. I am not going to even dream of loosing any during this time. It will be stressful enough without worrying about that, too. I so I will just concentrate on doing what I have to do and also on eating healthy. I won't feel guilty if I don't get my exercises done every day, or even every other day. I'm pretty sure that packing stuff up and moving things around will be pretty darned close to exercise. Don't you think?

Anyway, here's another pic of me with our new addition. OH! Did I mention that we are reserving the middle bedroom for an exercise room. We will put the home gym, the treadmill and the other stuff in there to start off with. And we will have no excuse to not use it. I hope.

Not Loosing Any Weight...

... but I feel pretty good anyway.
We finally got our home gym thingie put up and working. It's awesome! I have no pics yet, but... I will, I promise. Soon.




Okay, I was feeling pretty good. Now I'm depressed. Crushed. Okay, I'm crying a little bit. Life sucks. We got the house we wanted but when I called my son, who is in FL right now with his other family and who is supposed to come home on Sunday, he asked me if he could stay a couple of weeks longer. And Pete didn't want me to tell him that we got the house. He wanted him to just come home and be surprised. Why the hell does he always want to make surprises when he KNOWS damned well that they never turn out the way he expects or wants them to then he gets all offended and it just makes things harder on me. I feel so angry and sad and mad and terrible. Why is it that ever since we got married the days that should be the happiest always turn out to be horrible? I feel like I was robbed. By Thomas and by Pete. I should still be feeling happy and excited and all that good stuff. Instead, I'm sitting here crying and my nose is all stuffed and my eyes are blurry and red and I feel awful. I hate men! All of them! Not really. But I am mad as hell at both of them for taking this happy moment and turning it into a horrible one. It sucks.

And I'm also still fat. Only now... I'm fat and I have a ugly crybaby blubber face, too. I know we are going to have words tomorrow when we talk about it. Pete and I, that is. I've already had words with Thomas and that really sucks too cause I miss him so bad I think I might die and I'm worried to hell that he's going to want to stay there with them (they have been really working on him this time) and then they will take all his money and he'll have nothing left to live on and his life will be terrible and Oh God! Shut me up! I feel so miserable right now. I'm going to go to bed. I don't really feel like updating my stats or doing anything like that. I feel like crying and screaming and stomping and yelling and thrashing around on the floor and generally having a big two year old toddler type mad fit. But that won't help, will it?

Sorry, I'm late...

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Hey! Check out the boots!
I know, I know, I have been remiss. I have not done my posts regularly, nor have I been exercising regularly. I think I gained back the two pounds that I lost last month. My sugar is up. Bummer, that. But I shall keep working at it as I can. I just wanted to post a picture or two since I promised I would do that at least once a week.
Okay, I'm going to update my stats over there --->
and then I'm going to go find some supper. I think me and the man will have a cheese/veggie/fruit plate for supper. I was going to make chicken and dumplings or something like that, but I don't feel like having cooked food. I want raw veggies and fruits. A salad, grape tomatoes, baby carrots, seedless red grapes, bananas, radishes, cheddar cheese, Parmesan cheese, olives, pickles... a bit or a bite of each, perhaps...


Don't she look cute?

It Used To Be My Sewing Corner...

...eventually it will be my, excuse me, OUR exercise area.

However, I do have a little bitty bit of work to do before that happens. This is what it looks like right now, Saturday, Feb. 7, 2009:



Isn't that a lovely piece of machinery? I can tell already that I'm really going to get a lot of use out of it.


...but not if I don't get my act together and get it set up. Well, next week will be less hectic. And I will be here alone, since Thomas is leaving for Florida tomorrow. He will be gone a month. As I've said elsewhere, it totally totally sucks. Makes me want to say dirty words and work horrific, torturous, violence on my ex. But I digress...

Today I walked for 15 minutes and did the variation in speed that Bunny talked about in her post. I've not done much walking this past week, but the last two times I did walk I did the variation thing. Today I didn't get up much speed because I was already tired. But after my walk I did 45 minutes of exercises, concentrating on abs and arms with some nice long stretches too. Felt good.

Sugar was not too bad this morning, 183. Not good, but not terrible. Then my after meal number was 228, I think. That is NOT good. I would like to get to a place where I don't ever get over 200. I need to work on that harder, don't I?

Anyway, we went out for a drive today and looked at some houses that I had been looking at online. I think we have found our place, but still need to go inside it and get a good feeling for it. On the way home we picked up Chinese takeout. I had mu shu chicken, which is essentially chicken with cabbage, carrots, bean sprouts, mushrooms, other veggies, which you wrap in thin rice pancakes and serve with plum sauce. I went light on the sauce and only ate two pancakes.



I felt good today. It felt good to just spend time with my fellas and have a pleasant, relaxing day. It was enjoyable to the max. It was a nice day, temperature in the 70's, light breeze, lots of sunshine. Lovely day for an outing.

My End of Month Stats

Wow! It's February already! I can't believe it! Not just February, but the sixth of!!! And I'm just now today taking a walk for the first time this month!!! Bad BAD girl! That's horrible!

It's true, I have been busier than normal. But I feel so much better when I exercise. Why do I not do it every single day? Without fail? I don't know. Anywho... this being a new month, I am removing January's "My Exercise Habits", and "My Sugar" stats. I will begin again with this month. For lack of a better place to put them I am copying them here to this post.

My Exercise Habits
01/12/09 = 1 hour - 2.29 m
01/13/09 = none - sick
01/14/09 = none - lazy
01/15/09 = none
01/16/09 = 30min. - 1 m
01/17/09 = 45min. - light exercise
01/18/09 = 3 hours - ironing dance
01/19/09 = 1.5 hours - danced while cooking (does that count?)
01/22/09 = 45min. - light exercise
01/23/09 = 1 hour - 2.20 miles
01/24/09 = 30min. - .7 miles
01/24/09 = 30min. - abs
01/25/09 = 40min. - 1.25 miles
01/26/09 = 30min. - .9 miles
01/27/09 = nothing
01/28/09 = 20min. - .65 miles
01/29/09 = 30min. - .75 miles
01/30/09 = 1 hr. - 1 mile
01/31/09 = 15min. - .5 miles
01/31/09 = 30min. - weights/abs
02/06/09 = 20min. - .72 miles

My Sugar
01/12/09
Before Meal no. 95
After Meal no. 132

01/13/09
Before Meal no. 166
After Meal no. 147

01/15/09
Before Meal no. 169
After Meal no. 216

01/16/09
Before Meal no. 125
After Meal no. 148

01/17/09
Before Meal no. 133
After Meal no. 138

01/18/09
Before Meal no. 153
After Meal no. 149

01/20/09
Before Meal no. 173
After Meal no. 199

01/22/09
Before Meal no. 242
After Meal no. 187

01/23/09
Before Meal no. 243
After Meal no. 172

01/24/09
Before Meal no. 166
After Meal no. 199

01/25/09
Before Meal no. 133
After Meal no. 163

01/26/09 - AM
Before Meal no. 159
After Meal no. 266
01/26/09 - PM
Before Meal no. 133
After Meal no. 108

01/28/09
Before Meal no. 200
After Meal no. 161

01/29/09
Before Meal no. 157
After Meal no. 228

01/30/09
Before Meal no. 252
After Meal no. 116

01/31/09
Before Meal no. 137
After Meal no. 160

02/05/09
Before Meal no. 157
After Meal no. 247


I will wrap up this month by saying that I lost a whole 2 pounds. Not much eh? But at least I didn't GAIN them, I LOST them. My goal is 3 pounds for this short month of February. If I can't do that... well, I just can't. That's all. No need to get down on myself, is there?

Hope you all are meeting your goals, whatever they may be.
Love to all. :-)

I'm Not Finished Yet!

...
in fact, I haven't even started. On my surprise, that is. I had hoped to have it all done and ready to take a picture of and blog about by now... but I've been running my short little legs off this week. I'm tired, I haven't had time to exercise, and I also ate a bacon cheeseburger and french fries today while I was out and about. I DID NOT have the soda, tho. I had water. I was at least that good. :-)

Anyway, this is what I looked like yesterday (Thomas took the picture):



Not bad, eh? I like that skirt. I need a new blouse to go with it, tho. Maybe I should try harder to loose weight and then I could justify buying a new article of clothing, no?

Anyway... this is the story of the surprise:
My man has been going to the bank on Saturdays to deposit his check and that just happens to be right down where the Academy Sports store is, so he usually goes in there and wanders around and day dreams about all the stuff he'd like to have. Back before Christmas they had a home gym set on sale for $199 and he started to purchase one but then decided to wait. Then, of course, when he went back to get one, they were all out. So... they just got some in again. And he was back to drooling over it and not buying it... so I went down there with him and told him to just go ahead and get it. We didn't go all out for Christmas and we had even built back up our emergency fund some... so... I knew he really wanted it and I also knew he wouldn't buy it if I didn't give him a little push. So I did. :-)

The only problem now is... I'm the one who has to put it together and I just haven't had the time since we got it on Sunday. And I have to go out again tomorrow. The dentist. I probably won't feel like working on it when I get home either. Perhaps I can work on it Thursday. Thomas is leaving for a month this coming Sunday, so after Saturday he won't be here to help me. I have to get it at least mostly done by then. So... anyway, since I don't have a picture of it up and operational, this is the one we got:



So... there it is. My "surprise". Not for me, but I'll use it. I had one when I lived in FL, and it was nice. I liked using it, but couldn't get it out to TX when I moved. So sold it and my treadmill before I left... I have had a treadmill here for the past 5 or 6 years, but only recently got really serious about using it. The man is the one who actually wanted this home gym, but I'm betting he won't use it more than a few times and then I'll be the one (and perhaps Thomas, too). We'll see. I hope he will use it. If he doesn't start taking better care of himself too, he will be old and wimpy and useless before he knows it. He's been acting like he's already half dead ever since his cancer treatments and the doctors all say everything looks fine, so far. He needs to get up and start living again. Easy for me to say, isn't it? I shouldn't be so hard on him, eh?

When I get it put together and start using it I will take a picture of it and maybe even show off while using it. :-) I'll see.... I'm actually pretty excited about getting it up so I can start using it. More than I thought I would be. I was happy just using my little hand weights and working out with Gilad and doing the treadmill, but I will really like using this machine. I think I will. I always enjoyed the one I had before. I'm sure I will be really weak the first few times I try it, tho.... I may cry. I'll let you know.

Here I Am...

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I call this beautiful work of art:
"Holly in Fuzzy Slippers Holding A Coffee Cup"

I call it that because... well... Its me, I'm wearing my scruffy old fuzzy slippers and I am holding my coffee cup. The very first one of the day, as I recall. Mornings are difficult for me. Even if I go to bed early the night before, and even if I get 8 hours of sleep... I still have trouble getting up in the morning. Of course those situations rarely obtain, but... sometimes they do...

I will be having a surprise to tell you all of soon. In the next day or two, God willing. Until then... enjoy yourselves and please check back later.

I'm Wearing My Brand New Shoes...

"Hey I put some new shoes on
and suddenly everything is right"

Thank you Paolo Nutini.


So... I bought some new shoes a few weeks ago. The other day when I took my walk I got a huge ugly blister on my left heel. I was not amused. I have been taking short walks in my house shoes ever since. Because I didn't want to give up my walks but I couldn't use my walking shoes. Today I went to Academy Sports and purchased a new new pair of walking shoes.



New Balance, of course. And you know what the problem was? I've worn a size 8.5 sneaker for years, decades... today I purchased a size 7.5 sneaker. Weird! I dropped a whole shoe size! Cool, eh? Would be better if it had been a dress size. But I'll take what I can get.

I did walk for 20 minutes today in my new shoes, but my blister is not fully healed yet and I nearly tore the skin, so I stopped. Bummer. But I'm sure I will be back to my usual walks soon.

Oh! I also got a set of hand weights to use with my Gilad DVDs. The set included: a set of 1 pound weights; a set of 3 pound weights; and a set of 5 pound weights.


My sugar is still sort of high but not as high as it was. I have been a little bit busy lately and haven't had the time or energy to concentrate on a routine. Tomorrow and Friday will be better. I hope.

I know... this post doesn't have a picture of me in it... that's cause I am using the laptop and I don't have many pictures saved on here. Let me see what I can find...

Nothing. Sorry. I'll post something tomorrow.
Bye for now.

See! She Can Smile!

This was taken on the 20th.


Today (the 22nd) my sugar was high, 242. That, I believe, is because I haven't exercised in 2-3 days. Also... I forgot to take my meds last night. Bad girl! I must try harder to do that correctly. When I'm supposed to. And to top that off, I had a soda yesterday because when I got home from my running around I didn't have any tea made up so I grabbed a 7-Up and drank that. I was soooo thirsty! Which is a sign that all is not well, for a diabetic, and which I should listen more closely too.

I have been an excuse making, lazy, careless girl the past few days. Must get back to the grind. Must, must, MUST! Hopefully, I will have a better report on myself a few days from now.

Well, here I am...

...
You lookin' at me?

Well, okay, I invited you to, didn't I?



Why don't she smile more often?

Because she only just last year got her teeth fixed and she is so used to not smiling or just not showing her teeth, that she usually forgets that she has nice, straight, pearly whites to show off now. I shall have to try harder to remember, eh? Perhaps I should incorporate that into my "wellness" programme? Yes, I think so.




Look! I'm wearing pink. No it isn't. I'm sorry... the store called this color "Sangria". Bwahahaha... its pink. PINK I TELL YOU!!! Never mind me, I feel a tad silly tonight.


Have you looked over there to the right? I have begun showing my "progress" over there in two sections called: "My Exercise Habits" and "My Sugar". I will briefly note what, if any exercise I did each day, and what my sugar numbers are for the day. I take it at different times each day, sometimes morning, sometimes afternoon, sometimes evening. Once right before I eat and again two hours after I finish eating. Sometimes I do one right when I wake up, too.


I will tell you all that I had an episode on Tuesday, the 13th. I looked back in my sugar notebook and I put the note "I feel good" on the page that day. That was right before I got extremely ill.

See, it happened like this: I was feeling fine, great, and then all of a sudden, I felt dizzy, nauseous, weak, shaky. After emptying my stomach of every meal I've ever eaten, I cleaned up, fixed the coffee pot and set out some leftovers for Pete and Thomas' supper and then I took my pills and crawled off to bed at about 6pm. Nothing strange in that, eh? Nothing at all. Except that about 5:30am the next morning, Pete woke me up and told me that he was leaving for work and that I should get up and go to the bed. And I thought I was in the bed! For a few moments anyway... then I realized that I was laying on the sofa, fully dressed, with my shoes on even! And no memory of having gotten up during the night and dressing or going to the living room.

Later on that morning I got up and started my day. Thomas came down and he asked if I was okay. I said yeah, just tired feeling, and I went on and started my day. As I went thru the sun room to the back door to feed the cats I noticed that the plants had all been rearranged and the floor cleaned. I didn't think anything of it, tho. Perhaps Pete had had a little extra time before leaving for work and had done it for me. During the day Thomas told me that I had been up the night before and that he had had to help me walk and had to hold me up and that I was talking funny and stuff. He told me that I had got up after Pete went to bed and gone to the kitchen and cooked and packed Pete's breakfast and lunch and then heated food for us and watched a show on TV with him before he went to bed and that I was still on the sofa when he went upstairs. Only problem is... I don't remember any of it! Not one minute of it!

Then when Pete got home from work I thanked him for moving the plants for me. He looked at me really funny and said, "I didn't do that." So I asked Thomas if he did it and he said, "yeah, I helped you do it Mom, don't you remember? We did it last night." So... and so... and so....

Apparently I got up and did all that stuff and I don't have any recollection of it whatsoever. I don't know. Maybe it was related to my diabetes. Or maybe it was a reaction to one of the meds. But I've been taking them for months, over a year, for most of them. And I've never done this before. That I know anyway... maybe I have and just don't know it. Maybe the other times no one was up to see me. I don't know. Got a date with the doc this coming Tuesday. I believe I will tell him about it and see what he thinks. I hope he has a good explanation for it.

I had not yet exercised the day I took sick, and I didn't exercise the day after or yesterday. But I have been eating sparingly and trying to not snack on anything that isn't healthy, low-fat and sugar-free. Thank God for baby carrots and cherries. :) Today I walked for half an hour and went 1 mile. My legs felt very weak, but I persevered. I wished I could go further and might have if it wasn't so close to bed-time for Pete. My treadmill is in the bedroom, so can't do it after 8pm or so. I need to get my lazy butt up the stairs and clean out that extra room up there so I can make that my "woman cave" and put my treadmill there and my sewing chair and table.. my stuff... but it seems like such a hassle. If I cleaned it out Pete would just say he wanted to use it for this or that. I can't have any little bit of the house for myself. He horns in on everything I try to do or spot I try to make my own. Jeez. I sound grumpy tonight. I better go to bed. Maybe I'm still a bit "out of sorts".

Thanks so much everyone for all your kind words of support. You are all such a big help to me. Hugs to everyone!

Me, Pausing to catch what's on the TV

This was taken the evening of Jan. 9, 2009.





You can see how chapped and red my nose is from all the sneezing and blowing. Will be happy when the winter is over and I can turn this heater off. Seems like Pete is even more cold natured than ever this year! Doesn't seem like the heater ever goes off when he's here. I dread to see the next gas bill... oh well. I turn it off when he's at work, but as soon as he gets home, it goes right back on.


Don't know what just happened, but half my post just disappeared. Oh well, I shall begin anew....



I was saying: I hadn't been doing any walking or exercises since the days just after Thanksgiving. 2008 was not a good year in this regard. I gained back all the weight I had lost in 2007. I didn't feel well nearly the entire year... But I refuse to feel like a failure. I did what I could. Maybe it wasn't enough, but it was what I could do. And now that the New Year has come, I'm beginning again on a walking and exercise routine. Or as much routine as anything ever gets around here.


Anyway... so we got an mp3 player for Christmas. And I finally got around to putting some of my music on it yesterday. When I went for my walk I grabbed it and took it with me to the treadmill. I was having so much fun listening to my music without having anyone tell me to turn it down... before I knew it I had gone two miles! That's great, since the last time I did any walking I could not do two miles.


Then today, I didn't walk. Rather, I did some exercises. I did some crunches, some leg lifts and such and then I did some arm exercises with the one pound weights. Um... I'm not real savvy on the exercise 'speak' but I did 5 different exercises, arm curls, etc., and I did them 10 times x 3 times each. Does that make sense? I did each exercise 3 times and each time I did one, I did it 10 times. What the hell do you call that anyway? Smart exercisers out there wanna let me in on the lingo?


So did that plus lots of stretches and did some pampering and "girlie" stuff today. Painted the fingernails. Massaged, inspected, and moisturized the feet. Let Pete cook the supper... Sometimes it's good to be a girl, eh?



I am beautiful, even if you can't see it.

This is me 2009 Edition

Okay.


I'm going to be strong.


I'm going to do this.



This?



Yes, this.




THIS this is:


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A photo journal/diary of myself for one year. I will be trying to capture at least one picture a week of myself and posting it here, perhaps blogging a little bit about what I was doing/thinking/feeling at the time the picture was taken. Or maybe blogging about how the picture makes me feel after the fact.

So... without further ado:
This is me!
Sunday
January 4, 2009





My hubby took this picture of me. He was lying down on the sofa and I was standing about 6 feet away from him. Anyway... this is NOT what I saw when I looked at myself in the mirror. These pants I could not fit into two weeks ago. Now, or at least for today, they are just right. I didn't even have to lay down on the bed to fasten them. High fives for me!

I felt like I looked pretty cute in this outfit, but I'm not happy with this picture. But if this is how the world sees me... so be it. All I can do is try to live better, healthier. This is the whole purpose of this blog, remember???

Well, there I am.



Today.